November 19, 2010

This is not exactly civil disobedience

I do think the scanning and pat down policy by the TSA that is required to fly violates my privacy, but I have to fly rather than use longer transportation because it is easier to deal with any health problems that may arise while traveling. I will opt out of the scanning and take the pat down. I am not sure it will be anymore invasive than being at the oby-gyn. For those who would prefer to be scanned, you can't find out what type scanner that will be used from the airport nor the TSA web sites. I wonder would they even know at the airport.

I was thinking if enough people would opt out for the pat down, it just might slow down the security flow, airline departure and commerce. This might get the TSA to rethink it security policies: money talks better. I see nothing that is going on now, that will change their minds, although they have rethought their policies regarding pilots. That fact that you can be fined for basically deciding you don't want to fly and opt out of both the scan and pat down is ridiculous. It says you disrupt security and cause gaps, what BS. This whole policy's validity is like "Because, we say so."

Lets clog the system.

November 11, 2010

Do You Say Happy Veterans Day

Or, we appreciate your service. Or, put our money, time and effort where our mouths are and truly support the needs of our troops and veterans.

November 02, 2010


November 01, 2010

Real Congress of DC TV

A reality show that I would watch faithfully, would consist of randomly picked people from congress having to earn the salary of their state's minimum wage and ask to live in their district, providing for their family if they have one. They would first have to find a job that pays minimum wage, and manage to keep it for three months. They would have to find housing, pay rent, buy groceries, pay utilities and transportation. If they can't afford it, their spouse has to find a minimum wage job. I'll think they will find they are not working with teenagers, that the management doesn't care if they are educated or how hard working they are and that they may be fired for insubordination if they offer a valid suggestion. They may have to work offset shifts in order to have one parent in the house with the children, since day care will probably be out of reach. Of course they must change the way they look, no styled hair, no makeup, no contact lenses, silk ties, scarves, expensive watches or earrings. Whatever it takes to make them look average, can't have them be discovered. I'm not sure as part of the series they should be able apply for some government assistance or be able to use food banks. If it would come to where they would need the extra support to prevent starvation, they would leave the show. Am I being too harsh or would the show be to short lived?

I wonder how successful they would be. Would they know where to look for a job, where or how to shop cheaply, how to prepare nutritious meals or how to keep their energy cost down. Would they know how to do the things they complain that poor people don't know how to do. It would be interesting to see just what their complaints would be. Would they say that what is happening to them is an anomaly or that there many people in the same boat they are. If they have never had any empathy with those who were less fortunate, will this change their attitude? If they did have empathy previously, will they better understand what governments role in providing services should be.

Come to think of it, I think this show should include the policy makers from the think tanks,too. My favorite candidate for the show would be Newt Gingrich going back to Carrollton, GA. I think that this would be very entertaining.

October 08, 2010

Bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch...

When the President purposed that Green Jobs would put people back to work; I heard a lot of "Bah! Humbug." Now there is a chorus to create jobs. Mostly bitching about the Obama administration, even though a jobs bill has been signed to provide incentives to business to hire new employees.

More bitching, but if not Green Jobs, what. Ideology is not a business that can hire millions of people. It only has a few spots for pundits. Political theory is not a practical idea, there has to be something made or a service provided: something tangible that be bought and sold or even bartered.

I would like to hear of some idea for a workable solution to get people back to work, no diatribes on the free market or communism, just what will be the next industry that will produce jobs. Jobs that will stay in the United States.

September 11, 2010

The week that is - 09/05/2010 -09/11/2010

On this day I am thinking about the horrible acts of violence that occur every day. Ones whose date isn't marked, but still the violence takes many victims. I saw this article where a bombing strikes again in Pakistan when half its population is under water last week and then again this week. We can see that vengeance and evil purpose out weighs any compassion. Civil Wars continue and in the Democratic Republic of the Congo rape is a weapon of choice. There is a report from the UN that there were approximately 500 women raped during July and August, I am fairly certain that this continues now. Almost daily in neighborhoods across the US there is a shooting or murder, for some citizens it is like living in a war zone. As my mind drifts I begin to think of the victims of the attack on September 11, 2001; I wonder just how many had immigrated to leave such violence and how many lived in violent neighborhoods here. I also wonder how many of the victims families still struggle in stressful conditions.

Every year we mark this date, while the atrocities continue around us.  Perhaps each day we should mourn for victims of violence. Think of the consequences to humanity and ponder preventive solutions.

September 06, 2010

Whose dead are more precious?

In some sense I am always asking that question. When I see the effort to find the murderers of law enforcement officers as compared to an average citizen; the attention given some victims and not others of horrible acts and the offense of Islam given over the consideration of  military lives.

When many are screaming about the insensitivity of an Islamic cultural center two city blocks from "ground zero," why do they not understand why the military doesn't want this church burning the Quran?

September 04, 2010

Friends with benefits

When you see this in a personal listing, what does it mean? Does it mean someone with whom you can  talk to,  have a few drinks with, share flea market shopping or go to some events and with that you get sex with no commitment? The last part is a certainty, but the first part of that last sentence is what I'd like to change. I might not need someone to talk over a drink or coffee and I could do a lot interesting stuff on my own; but at a certain age, a woman may not be as physically able to fix things around the house as she once was.

This what I'd like to see.

Man with TOOLS seeking woman to be FWB.

July 04, 2010

Stranger in a strange land

I can't exactly put my finger on it, but it seems that certain Americans are becoming strangers in their homeland. Those who seem to hold the microphone insist they are the true Americans or patriots. They speak of liberty as if they own the word and no one else understands freedom more than them. They worship the service of the military almost as a fetish. They create songs, hold rallies and empty their pockets, they do everything, but serve themselves. It is also odd to hear their lack of understanding of what it takes to be citizens. The meaning is inconsequential, until they describe the stranger, the other, the alien.

Patriotism has become a notion, similar to becoming consumed with the spirit at a revival. When I hear someone greeted as a good American, because they both agree on the same ideology, I think then what must I be.

I don't think I am a bad American. I think I understand why and how this country came to be. I fulfill what I consider my civic duty, and I understand the way government works and how it officials are elected. I even understand the concepts in the Constitution and Bill of Rights. I also think that in our system of government a diversity of opinion is necessary.

I wonder if this alienation will continue, every day there seems to be a new stereotype created; not just for the other, but for themselves.
Today, when the Declaration of Independence is read, will the words be listened to and fully understood without personal prejudices; prejudices of the author, the times or the circumstances? Will they see it as an idea, greater than that moment?

U.S. National Archives and Records Administration July 3, 2010 

The Declaration of Independence: A Transcription

IN CONGRESS, July 4, 1776.
The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America,
When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.
We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.--That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security.--Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The history of the present King of Great Britain is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid world.
He has refused his Assent to Laws, the most wholesome and necessary for the public good.
He has forbidden his Governors to pass Laws of immediate and pressing importance, unless suspended in their operation till his Assent should be obtained; and when so suspended, he has utterly neglected to attend to them.
He has refused to pass other Laws for the accommodation of large districts of people, unless those people would relinquish the right of Representation in the Legislature, a right inestimable to them and formidable to tyrants only.
He has called together legislative bodies at places unusual, uncomfortable, and distant from the depository of their public Records, for the sole purpose of fatiguing them into compliance with his measures.
He has dissolved Representative Houses repeatedly, for opposing with manly firmness his invasions on the rights of the people.
He has refused for a long time, after such dissolutions, to cause others to be elected; whereby the Legislative powers, incapable of Annihilation, have returned to the People at large for their exercise; the State remaining in the mean time exposed to all the dangers of invasion from without, and convulsions within.
He has endeavoured to prevent the population of these States; for that purpose obstructing the Laws for Naturalization of Foreigners; refusing to pass others to encourage their migrations hither, and raising the conditions of new Appropriations of Lands.
He has obstructed the Administration of Justice, by refusing his Assent to Laws for establishing Judiciary powers.
He has made Judges dependent on his Will alone, for the tenure of their offices, and the amount and payment of their salaries.
He has erected a multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to harrass our people, and eat out their substance.
He has kept among us, in times of peace, Standing Armies without the Consent of our legislatures.
He has affected to render the Military independent of and superior to the Civil power.
He has combined with others to subject us to a jurisdiction foreign to our constitution, and unacknowledged by our laws; giving his Assent to their Acts of pretended Legislation:
For Quartering large bodies of armed troops among us:
For protecting them, by a mock Trial, from punishment for any Murders which they should commit on the Inhabitants of these States:
For cutting off our Trade with all parts of the world:
For imposing Taxes on us without our Consent:
For depriving us in many cases, of the benefits of Trial by Jury:
For transporting us beyond Seas to be tried for pretended offences
For abolishing the free System of English Laws in a neighbouring Province, establishing therein an Arbitrary government, and enlarging its Boundaries so as to render it at once an example and fit instrument for introducing the same absolute rule into these Colonies:
For taking away our Charters, abolishing our most valuable Laws, and altering fundamentally the Forms of our Governments:
For suspending our own Legislatures, and declaring themselves invested with power to legislate for us in all cases whatsoever.
He has abdicated Government here, by declaring us out of his Protection and waging War against us.
He has plundered our seas, ravaged our Coasts, burnt our towns, and destroyed the lives of our people.
He is at this time transporting large Armies of foreign Mercenaries to compleat the works of death, desolation and tyranny, already begun with circumstances of Cruelty & perfidy scarcely paralleled in the most barbarous ages, and totally unworthy the Head of a civilized nation.
He has constrained our fellow Citizens taken Captive on the high Seas to bear Arms against their Country, to become the executioners of their friends and Brethren, or to fall themselves by their Hands.
He has excited domestic insurrections amongst us, and has endeavoured to bring on the inhabitants of our frontiers, the merciless Indian Savages, whose known rule of warfare, is an undistinguished destruction of all ages, sexes and conditions.
In every stage of these Oppressions We have Petitioned for Redress in the most humble terms: Our repeated Petitions have been answered only by repeated injury. A Prince whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free people.
Nor have We been wanting in attentions to our Brittish brethren. We have warned them from time to time of attempts by their legislature to extend an unwarrantable jurisdiction over us. We have reminded them of the circumstances of our emigration and settlement here. We have appealed to their native justice and magnanimity, and we have conjured them by the ties of our common kindred to disavow these usurpations, which, would inevitably interrupt our connections and correspondence. They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends.
We, therefore, the Representatives of the united States of America, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the world for the rectitude of our intentions, do, in the Name, and by Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly publish and declare, That these United Colonies are, and of Right ought to be Free and Independent States; that they are Absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political connection between them and the State of Great Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes and our sacred Honor.

July 02, 2010

Sekhmet's Lament

It has been a while since I have spoken of the war in Afghanistan. I have not been paying too much attention, for I had not been aware that there was a timetable set to draw down troupes next year. This became highlighted recently with the incidence of the improper conduct of General McChrystal.

I knew basically that President Obama was following in the footsteps of the last two presidents, in assuming that the US has to nation build in order to fight or find the terrorist. The gives the US an out and supposedly prevents these wars from becoming like Vietnam. I am not sure if it is the Americans or the foreign policy juggernaut and the current pols that wanted these wars to have been great versions of morality plays; democracy versus communism, now, democracy versus the Islamist. I never saw nation building as a strategy to bring down Al Qaeda. I think our mission should have been strictly to destroy Al Qaeda and capture Osama bin Laden and his top cohorts and bring them to justice. I believe this should be our only purpose in the Afghanistan region. It is the United States responsibility, we were attacked. If I were a stranger observing this war I would assume that the US was protecting the Afghans and Iraqis, that the US was fighting their wars.

Taking this path, the US has put itself in less ethical position than its wants to present to its citizenry. We have lost the mission and made contracts with the devil in order to save face with the world and hope that others can contain the Islamist terrorist.

June 17, 2010

Seven Years

UPDATE: If you saw this here Tuesday you are right. I was wrong; the anniversary is today June17, 2003. At least I got the year right. Another senior moment. Having too many lately.

Today is the seventh anniversary of my kidney transplant, June 15, 2003. It is a same day anniversary, although I don't know what time; it was sometime after 4 pm.

My kidneys were destined to fail, I had Polycystic Kidney Disease and in my late thirty's my kidneys began to loose function, however very slowly. When in my mid-fifties the deterioration sped up and my kidney function was monitored very closely. The worst side effect from the disease was hypertension, not until I approached the need for hemodialysis that I became very exhausted. I didn't loose any work, even when I started dialysis December 10, 2001. Since I knew that I would have dialysis, I had had surgery earlier that year to create an access, a Arterio-venous fistula. I am glad it was done early so that I didn't have this.

I got called the evening before, so that they test 27 vials of blood, to match as many antigens and confirm my blood type. Sent home about 1:00pm, there were others tested for this set of kidneys. They came from a cadaver and were put on a pump to keep them viable. Called again the next morning for more test, then late that afternoon I was prepped to go into surgery.

Surgery didn't seem eventful but my whole body was swollen and red, a reaction to the unknown kidney. Then started the daily measurement of liquid I took in, the urine I expelled, the taking of my weight and temperature. While in the hospital, blood test and inter-venous pain killers (morphine pump at first). The medication; humongous sized immunosuppressant pills, huge doses, an anti-biotic and anti-viral,  insulin  and heparin shots. I seemed to be recovering well and I was out an about, then I began to feel more pain, very painful cramps on the side where my kidney is. I complained and only one doctor thought that I should get an ultrasound to check to see if any leakage in my abdomen. Somehow his recommendation got lost. I was schedule to go home in two days and that was that, even though the pain was getting worst. After going home the pain became extreme and I began to lose my voice and throw up when I spoke. During my first visit four days later,  I could barely speak and my sister had to explain how much pain I had been in, then the doctor decided to put me back in the hospital to do an ultrasound. They found that the Ureter of the transplant was leaking and they had to drain the urine from my body. Three days later on a Tuesday, I had another surgery. They took the Ureter from my kidney and attached it to the transplant. They completely removed the transplant Ureter, because it was necrotic. The surgery went well, but they cut through the same scar and the nerves were so damaged I couldn't get my legs to move right for a few days. I am still numb right over the transplant.

Even though the transplant has given me the ability to live better, at times it has seemed like that the treatment has been worst that the disease. Constant diarrhea and the onset of type 2 Diabetes from the types of meds I take. The osteoporosis resulting from the massive doses of Prednisone to keep me from rejecting the kidney, has exasperated the back pain I have had of late. When I had my native kidneys removed, that resulted in having to have another surgery to repair a hernia. Four surgeries within five years killed my stomach muscles, another factor of my back pain. I am now going to physical therapy to strengthen my core. Hopefully, year fourteen will be an anniversary like this, but without anymore side effects of the transplant.

June 16, 2010


I saw an interview with one of  the oil workers in the Gulf. He was upset that there was a moratorium on drilling offshore. He saw his lively hood going down the drain. It is sad to think that the company town  or region is back; where one industry has most of the jobs and if that industry chooses to leave or doesn't thrive, thousands of people are jobless.

Over the pass two years many have loss their jobs and there is this clamor to do something to create jobs. My question, where are those jobs going to come from? Can thousands of fast food, telemarketing, home health aides and retail sales jobs feed all these people and stimulate the economy? During the financial crisis, the financial sector and banks shrunk in size, although they became huge in the percentage of the market share. With technology, they don't need the same number of people to run those businesses. It is not that man is being taken over by machines, it is that in the US, hardly any thing is manufactured anymore.

I have always wondered just how many vending push carts would actually make money. Entrepreneurship is fine, but there have to be major businesses that employ a huge amount of people, in a population this size. Some politicians talk of how small businesses would solve the unemployment problem, as if this is 14th century Bruges. Quite often when an idea is developed, it is implemented overseas. The free trade treaties have not produced a balance of trade nor had it produced enough jobs for all parties. The economic world now is running on theories and ideology, not pragmatism. Some think that capitalism in its essential laissez-faire form is necessary to a democracy; as if this system was running like a machine, no human involvement what so ever.

In this new order there can be no restrictions to keep jobs in this country. However, one way survival may be possible, would be to finds ways to create small self sufficient communities. People within these communities would grow food and produce dairy locally and perhaps barter for local services such as plumbing, carpentry, electrical, landscaping and painting. It would also include reducing dependence upon technology. Thus, creating a community with a reduced cost of living, so that the few jobs they have or the hit many will take in their salaries, can allow for that American dream.

May 31, 2010

Memorial Day - National Cemetery Philadelphia

This morning I thought that I would take pictures of the Philadelphia National Cemetery decorated. There were a few people visiting, but no flags. I hadn't heard why there weren't any, but it had been announce on the radio early last week. While I was there, I stayed for the Observance, which was organized by the Philadelphia County Council of the Disabled American Veterans. I took a few pictures of the ceremony and the cemetery.

In each picture, a flag among many graves. Click on the bottom picture, the flag is in the center below tree. I didn't feel right, walking over the graves to get closer.
A broader view.

I missed the Color Guard and the gun salute. I had run out of memory and had to delete some pictures in order to get these. Most veterans here were my generation or older. The members of the Disable American Veterans seemed almost a rag tag bunch, but all had such purpose and bemoaned the fact that there were no younger veterans. I found myself pissed that there not had been flags placed at each grave and hopefully can find and join some group that will do it next year. The picture above is the place the most recent veterans have been buried.
The ceremony itself was perfunctory, but the place is moving. It was a totally unexpected experience to be among the dead, veterans of war, since the Civil War.

May 15, 2010

May 11, 2010

How does this happen?

The last recall on Romaine lettuce seems incredulous. Has any farmer learned from previous contaminated produce? I could fathom how this happen in some other countries where they washed produce in water that wasn't treated properly, but this happened in Arizona. Don't we have clean water standards? Contamination from handling? Who's watching?

May 03, 2010

Pet Peave

I have noticed lately that there seem to be a lot of ad campaigns against the mistreatment of pets. I began to wonder if people value animals more than children, since I have seen relative few ads to help abused children. Another ad came on this morning about abused pets and for some reason it irked me more that at other times. We know in this society what lies ahead for an abused child. Also we know that there may not be good outcome resulting from children who are homeless or go hungry or in very unstable situations. I do know that there are organizations designed to help children in need, but they don't seem to get the word out or have a celebrity pleading with you to help them.

Even though, I am not a pet person, I don't think animals should be mistreated, but I don't think animals should be put ahead of people. When I had expressed that to a co-worker, I was asked why couldn't we advocate for both. I feel that if humans worked on their own problems and eliminate our destructive nature toward other humans, we wouldn't have pet abuse or mistreatment of other animals. This is not to say that we should do nothing about the abuse of animals, it is just that I don't think it is where most of our charity should be placed.

April 15, 2010


When I was in high school I played in the band. During football season and parades I played an alto Saxophone and for concerts I played Oboe. My senior year I was entered into a competition to play in a student orchestra, sponsored by the city's Symphony Orchestra. My band teacher selected a piece for the Oboe. I don't remember what it was, but I didn't like it. I did practice because I wanted a chance to play in an orchestra. It was extremely technical and difficult to play, but I thought I had mastered the technique. I didn't get a chance to find out from the Symphony's players or conductor, because my band teacher told me that I wasn't good enough and he would not allow me to audition. 

One might be thinking that he was right, but I had formal music training since I was five and had played a wind instrument for six years and three on the Oboe.  I had been exposed to classical music before I started taking piano lessons. I may not have been good enough, but I was good enough to audition. If I had failed, I would have had the experience and exposure.  In college, this would have given me the confidence to play well enough in the University's orchestra to perform with them.

I thought about this now, because I still want to play, now that I'm retired and I have to start over. Buy an instrument, take lessons and hope that I can attain the facility I had in high school. I do think that I have a better grasp on music interpretation now that I'm older, which I hope will make others willing to play with me.

I think of the reason I was not allowed to audition, it is that I would have been among the first; the first Negro, that burden of perfection.  During that time, that is what Black people wanted to send out into the white world. Yes it was well known that you had to be twice as good or work twice as hard to get that position or recognition, but I wonder how much talent has been stifled, because of some ill conceived notion of not being perfect.

Today forty years later, we are still remarking about the first Negro, which gives the impression that Black people have hardly made any strides. Reflecting on my audition, I am beginning to think that the celebration of the First sends the wrong message.

That student orchestra wasn't filled with white prodigies, they were musicians. Most would never have solo careers or play with the New York Philharmonic, The Philadelphia Orchestra or The Chicago Symphony, but they might have had careers in music, staying in their small town, playing with the local orchestra or ensembles.

April 01, 2010

Living in the last half of the 20th century

The one thing about living half a century in the 20th was to see the quickness of change that technology brought and how the public discourse has changed. I was reading this post at The Strange Death of Liberal America, "Can Right and Left be friends?" which made me think about a childhood friend, an adult neighbor, who had many discussions with my dad about politics. He was a Republican and my dad, a Democrat. The  conversations never got toxic, didn't create the animus that seem to be so prevalent today. I also thought about a college friend who didn't seem to be so rigid, as to get angry when he was challenged, but forty years later had seem to have gotten ultra sensitive to any criticism. Then as one thought leads to another, I thought back to my childhood when there was not such a bridge between the Black Republican and Democrat. When Edward Brooke was a senator, we were all proud.

The generation gap was created during this time, which I never understood. Sometimes I think it was a media intervention. I could not fathom why there was so much controversy over the music. Rock seem to me to have the same roots as swing. When I said I had an  adult friend, it didn't go beyond the boundaries of adult and child, but I could talk to this person about most things. I remember another neighbor who would give  me cookies or something to drink and sit on the porch and chat with me. At five I was treated with respect as if I had been twenty. As an adolescent I rebelled against my parents, but not to a point where there was a riff. I think when I grew up the expectation was that you would become an adult when you graduated from high school, so you were expected to be more responsible at an earlier age; no long transition into adulthood.

The advent of PC language, the increased sensitivity of groups, the idiocy of group think, the expansion of addictions, the constant talk without substance, seem to be inventions of the last half of the 20th century. I can't say I would have liked to have lived in other times, but I would  have liked the civility of my childhood to have lasted a little longer.

March 12, 2010

24 redux

Is this an instance where fat old men were wishing they were Jack Bauer?

Karl Rove defends waterboarding

February 25, 2010

Rant #9

Intrigue - n. - a mysterious or fascinating quality
Concise Oxford English Dictionary

So is everybody that is a celebrity, politician or interesting person intriguing? People magazine started it and now CNN has a feature called Intriguing People.

February 17, 2010

In a blink of an eye

Beaver Creek, Colorado 

Reminded by a friend's post describing the decent of Franz Klammer in his Gold Medal downhill race in the 1976 Olympics. I remember that run; it was exciting to me. It inspired me. I wanted to learn to ski. Soon forgot the desire, with the stuff of life happening.

Reading that post, rekindles my desire; but in the blink of an eye, almost 35 years have passed. Now my body is broken.

February 14, 2010


Waiting on this day, to know if I've been forgotten.

January 17, 2010

The New Year

It is already into the mid of January and I am not well. I had another round with back pain and a knee injury flare up. Both had me flat on my back, unable to move and in much pain. Have been laid up so much these past months that I am week and cannot walk very well. Lost weight and muscle and I'm feeling much older than I should. I wonder if I will ever feel as I did ever a year ago.

As it is, I haven't felt like blogging. I don't want to shut down this blog just yet, because I may in the future feel I need to speak.

To those that have visited: Have a Happy New Year